1.31.2007

drive in between the rain drops

Email that just showed up in my inbox:

Wednesday, January 31
*New Seminar Listing*
Behavioral Neuroscience
Dr. Victoria N. Luine
Distinguished Professor, Hunter College of CUNY, City University of N.Y.
"Stress Effects on Cognitive Function: Accounting for Sex and Age."
3:00 p.m. - SEA 4.244

Enough to make any grad student wonder.

current thesis count: 15 pages, 38 sources cited

1.25.2007

ruck it

Training for the spring season starts tonight for the Valks! I'm so excited I'm having trouble concentrating on the work I need to be doing.

1.19.2007

dodging a bullet

Yesterday afternoon/eveningish I spent some time working on my thesis. Or at least ostensibly working on the thesis. As part of my delaying I spent some time on the website of the NIAAA (the NIH branch that funds most of the research going on in my lab). Said website contains a lot of information aimed at a lot of different groups of individuals from middle schoolers right up through alcohol researchers. Whilst piddling around on the site I found the following:

"However, whether an individual will drink in response to stress appears to depend on many factors, including possible genetic determinants of drinking in response to stress, an individual's usual drinking behavior, one's expectations regarding the effect of alcohol on stress, the intensity and type of stressor, the individual's sense of control over the stressor, the range of one's responses to cope with the perceived stress, and the availability of social support to buffer the effects of stress."

(from here, because all good little graduate students cite their sources).

Basically that paragraph is a clear description of my life. Upon moving to Austin the amount of alcohol I consumed in a given period of time was indeed directly proportional to the quality of friends I had. The level of stress I'm under certainly hasn't decreased since those early days of graduate school. It has changed (and if anything increased to the "who would willingly do this to themselves?!" level). However, I do not spend weekday evenings at home depressed on my sofa watching movies like Nora while drinking copious amounts of wine like I might otherwise. Because I now have absolutely awesome friends and my my perceived stress has dropped considerably. You all (and you know who you are) are my buffer. Thank you.

1.17.2007

ice day

This should be the requisite "OMG! It's snowing! We're in Austin and it's SNOWING!" post. I missed out on that yesterday. Not out on taking pictures of it, because yes I was outside when it started and I was most certainly grinning like an idiot. Because I'm in Austin. And it really was snowing. I haven't seen snow since February of 2004 when Stillwater (photo on the right) was covered with the white stuff and it was so cold the brick courtyard in front of the Edmond Lowe library was a sheet of ice for a week. No, I'm missing out because I left the adapter cord for my camera at work and therefore can't upload any of those photos of the ice I took until it is retrieved.

So I spent yesterday working on just about anything except my thesis. On a positive note, however, my kitchen is cleaner that it has been in quite a while. I also spent loads of time playing with the photographs already on my computer as well as on flickr. I finally uploaded my Thanksgiving pictures, including some adorable ones of my youngest cousins. I also came across these incredible images from Ophelia Chong. I wish I were half as creative. I never even contemplated collages of the sort despite the large amount of it I did in college. Not entirely a wasted day, but one I could have utilized better.

1.14.2007

another one

With lack of inspiration comes boredom and web surfing. PhD describes some things uncannily well.

1.12.2007

Darcy and Evil Lawyers


Darcy and Evil Lawyers
Originally uploaded by Hull Cove.

Side by side in the fiction section at Borders, a sweet dream and a crushing reality.

1.08.2007

nothing

I'm battling a serious lack of inspiration to write. Or maybe not battling, since I've more or less given in to it. Heading into this semester I can feel the stress looming over me, which makes me want to burn up hours and hours with staying in bed, watching episodes of Firefly over and over, reading fluff fiction, and drinking hot chocolate with irish creme in it. Burn hours spending time with my friends instead of reading endless journal articles with neuro terminology I can't pronounce and that refuses to lodge in my brain.

Four months.

Okay, I'm going to make solutions now. At least that is something I can pretend is productive.

1.01.2007

sigh



back to work...

12.22.2006

post script

And in further procrastination: I heart Emma Thompson for many reasons, this article displaying a few of them.

"What I tend to do is lie in a fetal position under my desk and weep for a while. Then I get bored with that and I write something."